This weight loss situation is really a bitch. I guess I had become more comfortable with maintaining than I realized.

Part of me wants to just not worry about the smallish (to me) gain and just focus on maintaining my current weight, but the other part knows I’m just trying to get out of the work required to lose the weight.

I’m good with the exercising. I love it, need it for my sanity, blah, blah, blah. It’s the giving up of the food that’s hard.

I haven’t gone crazy and started eating fast food/processed junk or anything. I think my portions have increased and my desire to do things like measure out almonds vs. grabbing a handful has just gone out the window. I seriously dread having to weigh and measure and all that – even though I KNOW it’s best.

I NEVER wanted to have to lose weight I’ve already lost – but here I am. Not the end of the world, but definitely unpleasant.

Losing 10-15 pounds is proving to be harder than losing 100. I just don’t have the same motivation for some reason.

I’m working on it.
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The past couple of weekends have been great. I don’t know if it’s the improved weather (and sunshine) or the lower levels of stress now that Jon’s job thing is getting better and school is ending for the year or what … but things just seem much better around here.

The weekend before last, we spent both days ripping out a bunch of stuff and redoing our backyard patio area. I really don’t know anything about gardening, but I think it turned out well.

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The pampas grass planted behind the patio was out of control and grew over into the patio every year and crowded everything and mosquitoes lived in it and I hated it – so it’s gone.

(wee Molly!)
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It was a huge undertaking to dig it all out – but it’s done and I’m really happy it’s gone. I need to fill in some areas, but I’m mostly done with it, I think.

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We also did a ton of pruning and trimming and yard maintenance stuff, in general, which Jon hates and I sort of love in small doses – so it was good. Sunshine and exercise combined!

This past weekend was even better.

On Saturday, we had a dinner party for a bunch of people who have helped me this year (with school). The weather was fantastic, so Jon grilled and we did a Mexican(ish) thing with fajitas, mashed black beans, a zucchini casserole, etc. It was a lot of fun.

I made a lemon/blueberry cake that was FANTASTIC.

Windows open, leftover cake, no plans. Banner day. ☀️👌

Recipe is here: http://www.cookingclassy.com/2014/05/lemon-blueberry-cake/

Highly recommend it.

MC turned 10 months old yesterday (Sunday), which I just can’t believe.

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He’s definitely aware of the balloons now.

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Wasn’t too happy about them.

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It was also his mom’s 22nd birthday, so we celebrated that, too!

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Overall, super fun weekend.

❤️❤️❤️

Sweet babies and sweet puppies are the best. 😍

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I’m not really sure what I’m going to do with myself for the next few weeks. I know I was stressed last summer about not knowing how to fill my time – and I’ve been tempted to embrace that stress this time around – but I’m working on NOT worrying about it. I’m just going to take a break and be ok with it and learn how to live with the anxiety that accompanies this for me. Maybe I’ll learn how to knit or something?

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