The past two days have been some of the most stressful I’ve encountered in a very long time.

The flip side of that, though, is that they’ve also been the best two days I’ve experienced in a very long time.

Saying goodbye is really, really hard, but it’s also so rewarding when done appropriately.

I cried in front of all kinds of people – and they cried with me – and I didn’t freak out and try to make everything “better.” I needed real closure – and I got it – and it was good.

It’s weird … these emotions. Just feeling them without fixing them.

I found myself fantasizing about cupcakes halfway through the day. I started planning what kind to buy, where I’d go to get them, how many I’d choose. I very realistically and carefully envisioned exactly what I wanted these cupcakes to look like.

It’s still an automatic response.

Jon had dinner waiting for me when I got home. My favorite dinner – because he is sweet like that.

(I have no idea what this stuff is officially called. Pork chop + stuffing – or maybe she calls it “rice”? – made with cauliflower + leftover pesto on top. All from Everyday Paleo.)

I’ll probably eat some yogurt + fruit. And I know we’ll be going for a walk.

That cupcake idea was fleeting.

Anyway. It’s all over. Classes, papers, work, everything.

It’s a damn good thing my time here was limited. There’s no way I would have ever left my job (patients) of my own volition.

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