Worth reading or listening to:
A Daily Fight To Find Food: One Family’s Story
Eating Nutritiously A Struggle When Money Is Scarce

I somewhat wish the author hadn’t mentioned stuff like the fact that the mom gave the child a water bottle full of orange soda when he was thirsty after a walk … or that he had a popsicle for breakfast … because I wonder if it clouds a relevant issue, opens the door to criticism that might not be fair, and triggers a WTF response in even the most compassionate. But then again – maybe the criticism IS fair? Maybe this IS an issue that deserves a WTF? Maybe it’s not clouding anything at all?
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I’m going to try to work on cutting myself some slack re: my actual weight. I am SO close to achieving my initial 100 pound goal – yet I’m stuck. Every single day I weigh somewhere around 184 – 186.

EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

I’m making myself crazy about something that I ordinarily haven’t been caring too much about – definitely dwelling too much.

I know I should let go of the number and focus on health and happiness and the way my clothes fit and all that, but I can’t deny that I care about reaching this somewhat unimportant-in-the-grand-scheme goal.
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I complain and feel like I’ve been halfheartedly dealing with this plateau forever, but realistically – I’ve lost 13 – 15 or so pounds since about this time last year.

I wrote this in June of last year:

I MADE IT!

Looks like I’ve officially crossed the line. I haven’t been below 200 in at least 8 years.

So that was a decent reality check.

I think I’d forgotten that it wasn’t too long ago that I was struggling to make it below 200 and to sustain that.

I’m past the point of being able to lose 50 pounds in a year – and I know that – but it’s easy to focus only on how quickly I seemed to lose in the past. I’m making a commitment to myself to STOP with the obsessing, though, because 13 – 15 pounds is 13 – 15 pounds – it’s not NOTHING as I claim.

(I LOVE that I’ve kept this blog going past 2 days – my initial goal – because it’s so fun to scroll through the pictures and remember but DAMN does time fly.)
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I added an egg to breakfast – so 3 this morning.

I packed a mid-morning snack – 1/4c yogurt, 1/4c walnuts and a small handful of blueberries.

Lunch was a salad with ginger dressing + 2 leftover turkey burgers that Jon grilled over the weekend.

I ate a babybel while I waited for Jon to cook dinner because I was incredibly hungry. I think it was the first time I’d felt hunger in over a week. I guess my appetite is back.

Dinner was cod + asparagus + a baked potato with some Fage and (jalapenos after I took the picture).


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