Ok, so maybe I’ll try the publicize/spread the word part of breaking bad habits. Uhhh – again. For the 10th time? Who knows? Maybe this time it will stick.

I really want to make it to 172 (100 pounds lost) before the summer is over. Weight loss always seemed extremely insurmountable – 100 pounds sounded like ludicrous amount to tackle. Impossible. Now? All the little baby steps I’ve taken have me so close. I don’t care (too much) about how I look or clothes or any of that – I want this to solidify the notion that I am capable. Period.

I am going to take it week by week, but starting today, my plan is to post all of my food each day. I need the accountability and I need some focus.

I might start counting calories next week.

I’ve got the exercise part covered – I’m doing CrossFit 5 days a week (at least for the next 5 weeks or so). I feel like I’ve been hit by a truck right now, but I really, really like it.

Depending on the day, I’m 12 – 15 pounds from this goal. My incentive for reaching it? These. I am so curious.

Breakfast this morning happened sort of late because I had CrossFit + errands + house cleaning stuff to do. I was starving by the time I got around to it and was wanting sugar in a serious way (to boost energy, I’m sure). I wasn’t in the mood for eggs – and wasn’t in the mood for much hassle.

I added walnuts to my standard yogurt + fruit – and drizzled some honey on top, too.

I skipped lunch – somewhat. I wasn’t overly hungry, so I ate a spoonful of PB and some cantaloupe.

We went out to dinner tonight because I was craving falafel. Kinda random craving, but we ended up at what I guess would be considered an Egyptian place. It’s a total dump – and a little quirky – but it’s good.

We split a huge salad – lettuce, lots of oil, onions, tomatoes, peppers, olives, feta, hard-boiled egg, and some sort of spice stuff on top.

We also split the sampler – hummus, baba ghanoush, falafel, stuffed grape leaves, and some other stuff I have no idea about. The rice dish portion of it had rice, pasta, crunchy fried onions and lentils, maybe? I don’t know – all very good, though.

The salad was pretty huge, but I don’t feel as if I stuffed myself in any way since the sampler portions were pretty small – and were shared.

I’m trying really hard to make it to 9pm, but I don’t know that I can do it. I’m exhausted.