Apparently I am incapable of existing without sinus/allergy issues. Headache for the fifteenth day in row? Normal, I guess. I think I’ve determined I’m just allergic to everything.

I didn’t take a picture of breakfast this morning because it was the same as always – scrambled eggs and fruit/yogurt. I keep thinking I’m going to try something new, but I haven’t. I’m not sure why I feel this way – I existed on cereal for years – yes, I may have changed the brand/type or method (with milk or a bar) – but it was cereal day in and day out nonetheless. This new breakfast regime is very much worth the little bit of extra effort and little bit of sleep I give up to have time to prepare everything, though, for sure.

I attended a staff retreat today for work – lunch was provided. I contemplated taking my own, but decided the sheer rudeness of that would far outweigh the sleepiness I might feel after eating a carb-heavy lunch – so I didn’t. One lunch definitely won’t kill me – especially since I am not exactly 100% commited to any way of eating.

I minimized the damage by bypassing the chips AND dessert. I passed up WARM/freshly baked coconut cream pie, brownies with hot fudge and some kind of trifle situation with ladyfingers on top. I even passed it up a second time when everyone was dishing up all the leftovers to-go at the end of the day.

I sometimes don’t know what has come over me.

Other times, I think I might have it somewhat figured out – I make different choices because I want a different life. Chips and pie weren’t worth it to me today because I’d just had nachos and pizza throughout the weekend – and since I prefer chips with guacamole – and prefer my pie with coffee – and prefer to ENJOY those things vs. eating them while trying to pay attention to the work material being discussed around me.

The shift in my thinking about food has been profound … I’m constantly being confronted with situations like today that highlight that. I didn’t HAVE to eat that stuff today. Not a very profound statement unless you have or understand jacked up eating patterns, I’m sure.

Jon cooked dinner tonight. Grilled pork chops, kale, 1/2 a sweet potato with butter and a sour cream and a couple slices of a tomato from our garden.

The kale was new (to me) – Lacinato Kale. He roughly chopped it and sauteed it with garlic, onions and a little olive oil.

The garden is still producing here and there.

We have no idea what this is or how we grew it.

We ran a few errands tonight – came home craving sugar/carbs like CRAZY. The pizza and nachos (Saturday and Sunday) totally screwed me. I ate two bites of a bar that’s been around for the past 4 or 5 months.

Not worth even two bites. I would’ve been better off eating an actual candy bar.

Hanging out with my boys tonight.

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