My shoulders hurt, my arms hurt, my butt hurts, my legs hurt, my lower back hurts. I feel like I’ve broken some ribs. I seriously thought I wouldn’t be able to get out of bed this morning.

I had a session with the trainer yesterday morning and then went to a pilates class last night. 2.5 weeks of no training followed this week by 2 intense sessions + a pilates class = PAIN. I’m going to try to do some cardio later tonight, but otherwise, I’m not lifting a damn thing.

I added several of the weight loss/health/fat/whatever shows to the TiVo the other day and have started watching them. I added National Body Challenge, DietTribe, and The Biggest Loser. I already watch Ruby, X-Weighted and You Are What You Eat. Oh, and I still have a season pass for new episodes of Work Out, but haven’t watched the show in ages.

Typing it all out sort of appalls me. It looks like a lot of tv watching is going on, but it doesn’t actually seem that way when I’m watching it all. Jon won’t watch any of these shows, so I stockpile them and watch one or two episodes a night when he travels or when I have a free afternoon. Maybe I’m watching more tv than I realize, though?

I watch all of the shows because they’re fun and interesting, but also because I just genuinely like watching and learning from the people on the shows. I like people and I like watching people succeed, struggle, learn, adapt, etc. Watching how different people handle the same struggle I’m facing is fascinating.

My absolute favorite is Ruby. I cry every time I watch the show for reasons that I haven’t actually stopped to think about. I just SO want her to succeed. My other favorites are X-Weighted (the most recent episode – Nikki – is AWESOME) and You Are What You Eat. Minimal drama, I’ve learned things from the shows and I am naturally drawn to the straightforward, firm approach that the trainer and nutritionist take on these shows.

I’m on the fence about DietTribe and The Biggest Loser. I watched the last 20 or so minutes of The Biggest Loser last night and rolled my eyes more times than I can count. The drama is so high on both shows I can barely stomach it at the moment. I may not keep watching and just come back at the end to find out the results, which is what I’ve done with other seasons of The Biggest Loser.

The only negative thing I see coming from watching all of the shows is the constant comparison. I compare my weight, my body, my fitness level, my eating habits, etc. I’m not sure why I do it or what it means because it doesn’t change anything. Just seems a little crazy that I still don’t know where I fit on the fitness spectrum.