I’m in a weird mood today. I’m feeling some mixture of irritation, happiness, sadness and stress all at the same time.

One thing I’ve learned about exercise is that it’s essential for me. It keeps me (mostly) sane. Without it, days like today happen. I haven’t exercised since I met with the trainer on Friday, but it feels like so much longer than that. I’m addicted and jonesin’.

We took the bus and subway to various places around Toronto once we arrived on Saturday and I’d say we walked at least a few miles overall. It was faster paced than usual given the freezing temp, but not quite exercise. I’m sure the volume of food I ate counteracted all of the walking anyway.

Not much walking yesterday (Sunday) since we decided at the last minute to rent a car for the day instead of public transport + walking. I proposed this idea, so I’m glad it turned out to be a very good one (albeit a potentially lazy one). We were able to see a lot of the city even though it was cold, raining and windy and J got to have a day free of my bitching about the cold, rain and wind. Win-win situation all around.

Despite the lack of decent exercise and total abandonment of points counting throughout the past few days, weight loss is still very much on my mind. I’m not beating myself up about what I’ve eaten because I just simply love food and I’m not beating myself up about the lack of exercise because I just simply haven’t had time. I’m trying to do the best I can during this month with what I have (emotionally, physically, etc.) to work with. I’m going to keep recording what I eat because it keeps me aware, but I’m not going to beat myself up over any of it.

Our plan to share meals started with us sharing one meal, but has apparently evolved and now seems to mean we each get something and split our individual meals/food with each other. Not really what I intended, so I’m going to work on that.

7am: (On plane): Coffee, peanuts
8:30am: (McD’s @ airport): Egg McMuffin
1pm: (Healthy Greek): Chicken gyro, salad, pear/pom juice
Late afternoon: (S’bucks in unknown mall trying to warm up) Hot chocolate, 1/2 cranberry bliss bar (not worth the calories)
Later afternoon: (St. Lawrence Market): 1/2 Mushroom and potato knish, 1/2 peameal bacon sandwich, tiny piece of turkish delight (all totally worth the calories)
9pm: (PH) Pizza, water (eaten while sitting in bed watching Anne of Green Gables – felt like a slumber party! except I never had boys at my slumber parties.)

7am: (Hotel) Various fresh fruit, meat and cheese, muesli, OJ and coffee
1pm: (Mill Street Brew Pub) 1/2 Nachos, 1/2 Chicken and leek pot pie w/mashed potatoes and green peas, hot tea, water
2pm: (The Sweet Escape Patisserie) 1/2 Nanaimo bar, 1/2 s’mores bar, coffee
8pm: (Hotel) 1/2 philly cheesesteak w/fries, few bites of a greek salad, apple juice

7am: (Hotel) Various fresh fruit, meat and cheese, muesli, coffee
9am: (Hotel) Hardboiled egg, tea
I stupidly didn’t eat the rest of the day because I was sucked into reading.
7pm: (Hotel) 1/2 Reuben, 1/2 fries, 1/2 salad, 1/2 french onion soup, snickers, apple juice