Today is one of those days just perfect for naps, reading, hot chocolate and … more naps.  It’s raining and cold and pretty miserable.  I, of course, had to get up before the crack of dawn to do things like walk a mile in the rain to make it to class, walk another mile in the other direction to make it to an evaluation … and then walk another mile in yet a different direction to make it to the gym.  I hate rain.  Didn’t have an umbrella.  I have no idea why everyone starts showing up for class right before holidays/breaks.  Parking is a pain in the ass on a normal day … add those people and it’s a nightmare.  I typically don’t care and usually enjoy all of the walking, but I do NOT enjoy rain + cold.  Especially when I haven’t dressed appropriately for it.

I stopped at the grocery store on the way home and had to chant “stay focused, stay focused, stay focused” throughtout the store.  I was starving and I know I shouldn’t have gone while so hungry, but I swear it was hard.  Everywhere I looked I saw food that I would’ve just loved to stop and eat right then and there.  My attitude changes quite radically when I’m not hungry, but unleash me in a grocery store when I’m starving?  I’d eat just about anything.

Last week was good.  I exercised at least once every day, wrote all of my food down, enjoyed the weekend, etc.  It wasn’t a perfect week:  I skipped pilates on Thursday night to attend a birthday dinner where I ate approx 2000 calories and then I ate a cupcake AND birthday cake on Saturday at different birthday events … and I counted 10 occasions of restaurant food throughout the week … oh, and I ate a couple of cookies at a class thing.  Yeah.  Not perfect.  I feel no guilt, though.  I’m making good choices overall and see that I lean towards eating healthy portions more often than not, so it balances out.  I will never be able to look at a cupcake and feel disgust, so I might as well just accept that cupcakes (and cookies and cake and ice cream) will be part of my life (appropriately controlled, of course).  I’m thinking that’s not going to be so hard to do.

I just downloaded a C25K music podcast of some sort.  I’ve been jogging for a while now, but I still intersperse walking here and there.  My goal is to incorporate the C25K running schedule into my cardio plan each week so that I can start working on running longer distances.  I actually started jogging using this, so I think it’s time to revisit it.  I get so freakin’ bored if I don’t  have someone to talk to and I hate having to watch a clock, so I’m hoping the podcast helps.  If not, I’m going to have to suck it up and actually buy some music.  My cheap heart just breaks when I think about spending .99 a piece on songs.