I feel as if I could sit here and create a list of ailments a mile long. I’ve always been a hypochondriac, but it’s getting out of control. I haven’t actually been sick in ages (except for my stomach, but that’s easily controlled with a decent diet … and the iron issue, but that has been resolved), but I’ve been feeling as if my body wants to be sick for a few weeks now. I take a vitamin every day, get plenty of sleep, etc. but I just feel this low level crappiness. The root of the problem might be that I’m on day NINE of my “monthly affliction” (as J endearingly calls it) with no end in sight. Between that and the raging PMS that accompanied it … I’m surprised I’m not divorced. I don’t know what’s going on with my body. It’s wearing me down, though.

I didn’t feel like going to the gym today and didn’t have an appointment with the trainer, so I didn’t exercise today. I did an hour of cardio yesterday, which, of course, made me feel great. Maye I should’ve forced myself to go to the gym, but I decided to take a nap instead.

The WW point counting is going well. I am actually fairly surprised at how well the weekend went. Jon made corned beef/cabbage/potatoes for lunch on Saturday, which I had to smell for hours AND is one of my most favorite meals, but he weighed it all and I ate an appropriate portion. We had reubens the next day with the leftover corned beef, but I chose to use a large amount of points to do that. Dinner on Saturday was pizza. Dinner on Sunday was more reasonable – grilled chicken and Kale. Oh – Friday. Thai – Calamari, Rice, Salt & Pepper Shrimp. Bad, but SO good. Overall, one of the better weekends I’ve had recently. I ate more than I should have eaten on a few occasions, but I made some good choices, too. I weighed things and tried to control my portions about 85% of the time, which is an 85% improvement, so I’m happy.

Today – Food
7am: Oatmeal, Coffee (2)
1pm: Lean Cuisine Sesame Chicken, Apple Juice (9)
3pm: Few Almonds, Slice of Swiss Cheese, Couple of Crackers (5)
6pm: Vegetable Soup, Green Beans, Grilled Cheese (Rye Bread, 1T Brummel & Brown, Swiss Cheese, Mushrooms), Pineapple Chunks (11)
7pm: Ice Cream Bar (2)
Total Points: 29

I’ve eaten a lot of processed food today since lunch was frozen and dinner came mostly from a can. I don’t care too much at the moment. Could’ve been worse.

I’ve been saying that a lot lately – could’ve been worse. I could be 55 pounds heavier. I could be eating Taco Bell and Big Mac’s every night. I could still hate exercise. I guess I sort of feel like I should be striving for perfection when the most I can muster right now is just slightly better. I’ll get there.

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