It’s probably bad that this article had me trying to figure out just how many hours a day I can carve out for exercise … just to be able to eat more. 12,000 calories a day?! I doubt I could even pull that off. Wouldn’t mind trying some days, but damn. I don’t know how he keeps it up. I admittedly don’t know what it’s like to spend five hours a day exercising, though, either.

I spent an hour with my trainer yesterday and had one of those days when everything is hard. I felt weak and sore before we were even halfway through. There were a few things that I struggled through that I haven’t had issues with in a long time and I felt very frustrated. I had planned to go to the gym afterwards and do at least half an hour of cardio, but I left her house feeling shaky and worn out and decided to just go home.

I was exhausted at dinner, asleep by 9:30 last night and slept until 8 this morning when I woke up exhausted again. I don’t really know what’s going on, but I think it’s safe to assume my iron is low. You’d think even a complete idiot would’ve been able to figure that one out earlier given the unexplainable bruises and the fact that I forgot to take my vitamins on the various trips and have had only one in about 15 days, but it didn’t occur to me until this morning. I typically start feeling better almost immediately, so I’m hoping that the vitamins kick in quickly. I have a really busy week ahead of me that includes a couple more sessions of strength training, classes starting, another trip this weekend that is not for fun and will require me to think and I would like to fit in an hour of cardio each day. I need to be able to stay awake.

I’ve run across a bunch of bloggers participating in the hundred push ups training program and I think I’m going to give it a try, too. I pretty much hate the physical act, but I like that they make me feel strong and capable of doing something that I would’ve never been able to do 45 pounds ago. I also just really like challenges.

I’ve decided to do the initial test tomorrow. My upper body and shoulders are so sore today that I don’t feel like I’d get accurate results. I was able to do 32 knee push ups in one minute a few weeks ago when my trainer did a follow-up fitness evaluation, so I’m pretty excited to see what I can do. I plan to do standard (“good form”) push ups, so I’m hoping for at least half that.

(I wonder when the little voice in my head that tells me I can’t do these things because I’m too fat will go away? I just had to do two “good form” push ups to convince myself that I can even do them before publishing this post and committing to the challenge. I honestly don’t know where my fear comes from or why I always feel as if I’m not capable of doing something that I am apparently perfectly capable of doing. It really shouldn’t be surprising, but it always is.)