Well … 192.0 again today. No change WHATSOEVER. I guess I should be happy that I’m very easily maintaining this weight (versus gaining) given the craziness of life right now, but I’m not. AT ALL. I’m going to have to get serious about changing something. It’s apparently not exercise – I added 2 hours this week.
I can’t even begin to describe how much I do NOT want to count calories every day.
I know I have a choice to make – and I know constantly bitching about it isn’t productive – was just hoping I could up the exercise and see at least a LITTLE change.
Anyway – I was catching up on blog reading/procrastinating and watched this video Tess posted:
That, of course, led to this one (which is a great portrayal of what I envisioned my very first gym visit to look like):
Which led to one that’s … interesting … or something:
Moral of the story: I have a problem.
I won’t count calories because I claim to have no time, but I’ll sit and watch a man pose and flex for 5 minutes and will then break out my DSM … and will then be even MORE curious to find out what the internet has to say that I’ll read all about muscle dysmorphia/bigorexia.
Yeah. Slight problem with procrastination.
Today was typical. Jon put a roast in the crockpot with a few potatoes, carrots, onions and rutabagas. I didn’t eat much since I’m apparently going to have to starve myself, but it was excellent . Beef this time – no more elk. Too stressful.
(Edited to add: I added 2 hours of strength stuff. NOT cardio. I did zero long/slow distances. Also? I’m open to suggestions.)
Maintaining is better than gaining – with two hours more of lifting, some of that could been lean muscle gain, yeah?
I can’t speak for your body, but I know that if I ate the carby stuff you do – berries, apples and potatoes seem to feature – and ate as often as you seem to, I would never lose weight. But I’m quite insulin resistant, so I need to give my body time to burn its fat. Snacking often prevents my body from tapping into its fat stores. Eating just breakfast and dinner works really well for me, and I lose and feel best when I’m close to zero carbs – at any rate, always less than 20g carbs. I have no problem with energy, even on highly active days of strength work and lots of physical exertion. So that’s me.
My suggestion would be bigger meals and no snacks, focussing on fat and protein rather than carbs, cos that’s what works for me best.
I hope it’s some lean muscle gain! That’s what I tell myself, anyway. My clothes are feeling loose again … I think everything’s just shifting.
I’m thinking the same re: the berries and apples. The berries are going out of season, so it’s the perfect time to wean myself off of them. The apples? I’m going to try to limit, but I don’t know. I just love them this year for some strange reason – never have before.
I agree about the bigger meals, too. I’m trying to come up with a plan to get more protein and fat in at breakfast and less yogurt/fruit. I don’t know if I can go without lunch, though. I get shaky and usually get a headache … I’m wondering if adding more protein and fat at breakfast will help stop that? Worth a shot, anyway.
I’m pretty discouraged at the moment too. Not weight-related, but I just feel that I can’t do anything with any kind of consistency, ya know?
Also, when I’m really honest with myself I realize that, for this stage in life, I might be doing all I am willing to do. I know I COULD do more, and maybe someday I will. Right now, everytime I apply the cost/benefit analysis I come back around to where I’m currently at.
Anyway. As always, I really enjoy reading your posts. This is one of my favorite blogs, because I strongly identify with your attitude towards the health kick stuff. I want to feel good, and as with all other areas of life I want to do my best, but I don’t hate myself and I don’t want to give it too much headspace, you know?
Hang in there.
I know exactly re: the not hating yourself, wanting to do your best, and yet not wanting to give it too much headspace. That’s EXACTLY where I am.
I can lose weight. I know how. I’m just not sure I have it in me to care too much right now. Something’s gotta give sometimes.