So here I am again posting from bed.

Up since 5 again. Got some solid work done before my 9am class and even turned a paper in today (a week early!). I can see the light at the end of the tunnel!

I stayed at school and worked until about 3. I was brain dead, so I went shopping at target on my way home to unwind.

Jon’s child #4 came home from college for the holiday today and brought a friend (from Scotland) with her, so we had a “fun” dinner.


I put Fritos AND cornbread in my chili.

They’re watching a movie in the LR so I came and got in bed and am barely able to stay awake.

I’ve been STARVING for some reason today. I ate a banana and Larabar for breakfast, but didn’t pack lunch, so I ate a kinda crappy lunch I picked up on campus.


I could.not.wait. for dinner.

Timehop was fun today.



No exercise yet, but I emailed to inquire about some stuff regarding the running group session starting in January. So that’s a step?

I’m already in bed and am totally exhausted. Woke up at 5 this morning to start working and have been busy all day – so I’m ready to be done.

Pictures from the day:

Breakfast on the way to a meeting:


Sample of some kind of bread a Panera employee offered while I tried to get some work done:


(This was around 10a and was cup #5 or 6 of coffee and coffee place #2 of the morning. This is the problem with getting up so early. Also with needing places to meet with people and to work away from the distractions at home. I have to buy something. I’ve been feeling like I should cut back, but that’s really only about a cup an hour given I started at 5. I guess that’s not so bad?)

Lunch (ham, cheese, spinach, yogurt, salsa rolled up):


Shared my (“simply salted” or whatever the plainish version is) popcorn with this one, as always:


Snack (plain yogurt w/raspberries, blueberries and a few craisins):


Dinner (chicken thighs baked with sundried tomatoes and roasted asparagus and rice):


Tonight was fudge making night:


And ornament making night:


Time for sleep.

I feel like I’m always saying this, but here I am again feeling like the weekend was a blur.

I worked all day on Friday. We had plans to have pizza and go to the baby store to “look” at stuff for Christmas on Friday night, so that’s what we did.

I somehow skipped lunch (mostly because I was very busy and hadn’t packed anything and it was too inconvenient to leave work to get something) – so I was super hungry by the time we got to dinner. We wound up ordering some wings, too, so I ate a few of those and a couple pieces of pizza. For some reason, I felt REALLY bad afterward. Like, up during the night with actual stomach pain (not nausea). No idea. Probably too much junk lately. I just really need to learn my lesson. Not sure what it’s going to take.




It’s actually kind of amazing we left with just one thing. Well, one thing and some books.


In our defense, he LOVED it. He was interested in it from the moment we tried it out.


I had a goal to do some sort of exercise on Saturday and I feel like I accomplished it despite not going to the gym to do it. I totally count yard work as exercise because our yard is full of trees that produce millions of leaves. I’ve been putting off dealing with it until the trees are mostly empty, so I raked for a couple hours before Jon took over for a couple more hours. I cleaned out flower beds. Swept sidewalks. Etc. My arms are sore. We have a blower, but I chose not to use it.

I don’t recall what else happened on Saturday, but I know I cleaned the house and cleaned out and reorganized our storage closet and worked on some school stuff here and there. Jon cooked a sweet potato and mashed it up to see how MC would respond.


That’s about it. Busy day.

Sunday (yesterday), we did the typical prepping for the week (laundry, grocery shopping, etc.). I also pulled out all of the xmas decorations and started that process. The tree is up and the lights are on! We have plans to decorate with ornaments, etc. tonight with Jon’s child #3 and MC. We’re celebrating the holiday early this year, so I feel totally justified in starting the decorating early. I love this time of year.

Busy couple of weeks ahead with exams and papers due and a baby shower to co-host (at my house next week). I started feeling some stress last night and was very conscious of the desire to eat. I wasn’t hungry – just kept feeling distracted by it, though. I’m going to try to exercise or do SOMETHING active each day in an attempt to better manage the stress.

Jon bought something like 12 POUNDS of sugar yesterday to make a bunch of fudge, so yeah. That will probably help, too, unfortunately (or not). Tis the season.

Well, I read a little about vit D deficiency and learned that it can cause joint and muscle pain, so I’m going to go with that as the reason I feel so decrepit these days. Yeah. Sounds good.

Today has been baby day. I don’t know how to do much other than sit around hugging and taking pics, so that’s what we did again this week.


I know I’m not cut out to be a FT parent, but that smile and his sweet giggle gets me every now and then.



Jon’s home this week, so I had to share.


I don’t know what’s been up with me this week, but I just haven’t been super hungry for breakfast (maybe my body is compensating for all the ice cream/sugar?). I ate a banana on my way to my class this morning and ate a Larabar mid-morning when I felt shaky.

I went to Panera for lunch with the people from my cohort and had a salad.

I wasn’t hungry again until dinner, which Jon threw together pretty quickly with some ground beef we had on hand, an onion, a green pepper, bunch of spices, spinach, cheese and an avocado:


He wanted to order a pizza but I felt like that would be a bad idea since the weekend is coming. (I prefer for meals like that to be a fun weekend thing or special treat – not a regular weeknight thing.)

Having some pressure to keep a record of what I’m consuming has been extremely helpful the past few weeks. Myfitnesspal is annoying – especially since I’m not super focused on calories, but more on behavior – but this has always worked.

I need to up my pressure on the exercise front. I am working tomorrow (at my job – a week early since next Friday is a holiday), so I doubt I will do anything substantial. But Saturday! I will do something on Saturday. Really!

Typical day. Worked on a paper all morning since my typical Wednesday class ended last week (alleviating some stress, of course). Had a stats class this afternoon that totally freaked me out with all the stuff I need to have in my brain in a couple of weeks for a final exam.

I didn’t feel like eating this morning, so I just ate a banana for breakfast.

Had yogurt for lunch as I drove to school:


Had a snack on my drive home:


Ate another snack when I got home since I was starving (leftovers):


None of us felt like cooking dinner, so we plopped a bunch of stuff on (microwaved) potatoes:


I don’t know how these things end up happening, but we discovered peppermint ice cream is available now – so we bundled MC up and took him for a ride:


We are clearly ready for the holidays.


My doctor called today to follow up on the blood-work done last week. Apparently I’m perfectly fine except for a Vit D deficiency. He called in a prescription that I picked up earlier, but I haven’t had a chance to look at it. I think I take it once a week, which seems odd – but whatever. He told me to get some OTC B-12, too.

Still no exercise. I am GOING to get back on track. I swear.

I woke up today and was like, “Man I feel good … so much energy … I’m going to get so much DONE today.” Took a few minutes of evaluation about this weird state to remember that I’m on day 4 of my antibiotic and am likely just not SICK. I think I’ve had some kind of sinus infection issue off and on for weeks.

You would think that I would have channeled some of that energy into exercise, but I didn’t. I thought about running – but I just never got around to it. I HAVE to get into some kind of routine and start making it a priority.

I channeled the energy into banging out a 17 page start to a rough draft of a research proposal – and preparing for a stats quiz tomorrow.

I also spent time here and there hugging on and taking selfies with a baby.



We had miniscule amount of snow this morning, which was totally exciting for Molly. She was super impatient on her morning walk, so I let her run laps around the backyard for a while when we got home.


Little bit of snow and this one is in heaven zooming around the yard. ❄️⛄️☁️


She is definitely designed for the cold weather, but she never complains about coming in.





(Turkey, cheese, spinach, sour cream and salsa. I eat these like a taco.)


I’m not sure if I’ve ever posted this before, but Jon’s child #3 makes this raw cheesecake quite a bit:


My trainer gave me the recipe and I think we’ve probably made it a dozen or so times now for various occasions (uhhh … including for just having on a random weekday):

It is really very fantastic. We’ve made it for a bunch of people – some of whom were determined to hate it – and everyone has always loved it.


(Some sort of butter chicken situation that Jon makes a lot. Whole stick of butter, lots of onion, curry powder, chicken plus rice plus roasted asparagus.)


Somehow we got on the subject of peppermint milkshakes and the next thing I knew this was happening:


So anyway. Good day.


My body is hurting, though. My knees hurt and my back hurts and my joints ache. It’s clearly a lack of exercise. I just can’t seem to get my shit together. My typical routine is off right now (M and W strength training and cardio a couple times a week). I skipped last W and this M night, too. I don’t know what my problem is, but I just can’t get myself on track. I think I’ve got the stress eating under control – and I’m otherwise mostly treating myself well with the sleep and the getting dressed in actual clothes each day and all that.

I’ll get it together. These things happen.

OMG, the weekend was a whirlwind.

I had a doctor appointment early Friday morning (and was prescribed an antibiotic for a sinus infection that’s been driving me crazy). Worked all day (at my job, not school stuff) and planned to leave a little early (meaning 3:30-4P), but had some client crisis stuff going on (combined with talking with co-workers) and didn’t wind up leaving until a little after 6. We had a friend over for dinner, so I got home at the same time she showed up. Fortunately Jon had gotten home from his work trip around noon and had been able to cook dinner.

Fun night, but I was completely exhausted by the time I went to bed. I felt like I hadn’t even really had a chance to connect with Jon.

(His back-to-back travel lately is AWFUL, especially when he’s out of the country and time differences and the huge expense mean we don’t have much chance to talk or text. He plans his own travel but things have just been coming up. Too many things.)

We spent Saturday at home being lazy and hanging out with MC so his mom could have a break and do something fun.



Jon’s child # 4 came into town Saturday afternoon (from college), so we ordered Chinese take-out for dinner and then spent a couple more hours with MC.


I worked on a paper off and on all day and finally got it in decent shape by about midnight.

I have been on the couch all day working, but at least I've had company.

My goal was to spend Sunday with Jon (vs. distracted by the paper) – so that’s what I did.

We had a breakfast date and then went shopping and stocked up on everything (super fun and exciting, I know).

I don’t think I’ve ever made it out of Target without buying something for the baby.


Jon and I caught up on tv and had a super lazy day. I think I even took a nap.

Today, I had an earlyish morning meeting with my mentor and then spent the day at home hanging out. Jon’s child #3 potentially has mastitis and has had a fever since last night and has felt pretty awful, so I’ve tried to help with MC as much as possible.




Dinner (made by Jon’s child #3 when she started feeling a little better) (cauliflower crust, sausage, pesto):


I am going to make a real effort to run tomorrow. The weather is shitty, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. I miss it. A lot. Even though I hate it and am really not very good at it. It’s hard to explain.


So, yeah. Whirlwind. But I finished one big paper! One to go.

Today’s baby day. Jon’s out of town again this week, so it’s just been me and MC.


I don’t think I ever posted the 4 month pics I took since I’ve been mostly posting from my phone (and have never taken the time to figure out how to link to flickr from my phone), but 4 months!



He’s a sweetheart – a super happy baby with SUCH a sweet disposition. I feel very lucky to be able to be in his daily life.


I had a class this morning and a quick meeting afterward and I gave Henry a bath and did a little laundry – but I’ve spent the majority of my time hugging a baby.


I have a lot hanging over my head, but it’s ok. I never want to be so focused on stress (via work or school or whatever) that I miss out on stuff like this:



Just have to manage my time well. Realistically – I’ve been happy to have a break from everything today.

I can’t believe I’m up so late (1145p)!

I got home from classes late in the afternoon and canceled my workout with the trainer because of my growing stress about finishing a paper … so I’ve been working on that for the last several hours or so. Things were going well, so I just kept on with it way past my typical bedtime (9). I can’t stay up much later than this, though, and not be in a completely foul mood when I have to (choose to) wake up at 5. Big fan of sleep. I’m not sure that I can function on much less than 8 hours each night and have little desire to test it out more than a night or 2 here and there.

Anyway. Decent day. I noticed that I think I’ve switched from moderate level stress (which means a desire to stress eat) to high stress (which means little appetite and general stomach discomfort most of the time).

2 more weeks! I plan to do absolutely nothing productive during the break.

I ate a typical breakfast:


I packed my lunch but didn’t eat it between my classes because I was anxious and stressed about a statistics quiz for which I was woefully underprepared. Spent my time cramming stuff into my brain (with little success).

Fortunately, we were able to eat dinner pretty early since I canceled with the trainer. Jon’s child #3 made rice, roasted squash and chicken (marinated with some sort of lime, cilantro, cumin situation). She’s doing a really good job picking out recipes and cooking each night (we just buy the groceries). She seems to follow Jon’s general way, which I like:


Not much else going on. Classes all day, paper writing all night.

These two are pretty neglected right now:


But only because I’ve been too lazy to walk them as much as is typical and have instead been forcing them to play in the backyard. You’d think it’s torture by the looks they give me when they realize they’re going back there vs. exploring the world.

I have literally been working non-stop since I woke up at 5:30 this morning.

My body hurts from hunching over all day and my back hurts from sitting so long and my brain is just dead.

I worked some until daylight, which is the earliest I’ll walk the dogs since we have a lot of coyotes that roam around freaking me out. Shortly after their walks, I took a shower and got dressed and got to work. I think it was 7:30. Now that I think about it, I should have had better boundaries and should have at least had breakfast first.

Breakfast (yogurt, blueberries, almond butter):


I worked until I stopped to grab some lunch:


Then I worked until about 4 when I took a short break to take the dogs on another quick walk.

Jon’s child #3 made meatloaf (full of vegetables and topped with bacon), baked potatoes and steamed broccoli for dinner:


I seriously can’t keep this level of work up, but I have a 45 minute presentation to give in the morning and a huge paper due on Monday and another huge paper looming and 2 final exams … all in the next couple of weeks.

So. It’s going to suck for a while. I’ll survive. Good news is I’m too busy to stress eat? Bad news is I really need to exercise, but can’t force myself to make time.

I did squeeze a baby at dinner, which is always fun.

Today is our 8th wedding anniversary. Jon’s out of the country, so there’s no celebrating going on – but we’ll get around to it eventually. Timehop was fun today, though:




Can’t forget what life was like 8 years ago:




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