Well, I read a little about vit D deficiency and learned that it can cause joint and muscle pain, so I’m going to go with that as the reason I feel so decrepit these days. Yeah. Sounds good.

Today has been baby day. I don’t know how to do much other than sit around hugging and taking pics, so that’s what we did again this week.


I know I’m not cut out to be a FT parent, but that smile and his sweet giggle gets me every now and then.



Jon’s home this week, so I had to share.


I don’t know what’s been up with me this week, but I just haven’t been super hungry for breakfast (maybe my body is compensating for all the ice cream/sugar?). I ate a banana on my way to my class this morning and ate a Larabar mid-morning when I felt shaky.

I went to Panera for lunch with the people from my cohort and had a salad.

I wasn’t hungry again until dinner, which Jon threw together pretty quickly with some ground beef we had on hand, an onion, a green pepper, bunch of spices, spinach, cheese and an avocado:


He wanted to order a pizza but I felt like that would be a bad idea since the weekend is coming. (I prefer for meals like that to be a fun weekend thing or special treat – not a regular weeknight thing.)

Having some pressure to keep a record of what I’m consuming has been extremely helpful the past few weeks. Myfitnesspal is annoying – especially since I’m not super focused on calories, but more on behavior – but this has always worked.

I need to up my pressure on the exercise front. I am working tomorrow (at my job – a week early since next Friday is a holiday), so I doubt I will do anything substantial. But Saturday! I will do something on Saturday. Really!

Typical day. Worked on a paper all morning since my typical Wednesday class ended last week (alleviating some stress, of course). Had a stats class this afternoon that totally freaked me out with all the stuff I need to have in my brain in a couple of weeks for a final exam.

I didn’t feel like eating this morning, so I just ate a banana for breakfast.

Had yogurt for lunch as I drove to school:


Had a snack on my drive home:


Ate another snack when I got home since I was starving (leftovers):


None of us felt like cooking dinner, so we plopped a bunch of stuff on (microwaved) potatoes:


I don’t know how these things end up happening, but we discovered peppermint ice cream is available now – so we bundled MC up and took him for a ride:


We are clearly ready for the holidays.


My doctor called today to follow up on the blood-work done last week. Apparently I’m perfectly fine except for a Vit D deficiency. He called in a prescription that I picked up earlier, but I haven’t had a chance to look at it. I think I take it once a week, which seems odd – but whatever. He told me to get some OTC B-12, too.

Still no exercise. I am GOING to get back on track. I swear.

I woke up today and was like, “Man I feel good … so much energy … I’m going to get so much DONE today.” Took a few minutes of evaluation about this weird state to remember that I’m on day 4 of my antibiotic and am likely just not SICK. I think I’ve had some kind of sinus infection issue off and on for weeks.

You would think that I would have channeled some of that energy into exercise, but I didn’t. I thought about running – but I just never got around to it. I HAVE to get into some kind of routine and start making it a priority.

I channeled the energy into banging out a 17 page start to a rough draft of a research proposal – and preparing for a stats quiz tomorrow.

I also spent time here and there hugging on and taking selfies with a baby.



We had miniscule amount of snow this morning, which was totally exciting for Molly. She was super impatient on her morning walk, so I let her run laps around the backyard for a while when we got home.


Little bit of snow and this one is in heaven zooming around the yard. ❄️⛄️☁️


She is definitely designed for the cold weather, but she never complains about coming in.





(Turkey, cheese, spinach, sour cream and salsa. I eat these like a taco.)


I’m not sure if I’ve ever posted this before, but Jon’s child #3 makes this raw cheesecake quite a bit:


My trainer gave me the recipe and I think we’ve probably made it a dozen or so times now for various occasions (uhhh … including for just having on a random weekday): http://www.therawtarian.com/raw-cheesecake-recipe

It is really very fantastic. We’ve made it for a bunch of people – some of whom were determined to hate it – and everyone has always loved it.


(Some sort of butter chicken situation that Jon makes a lot. Whole stick of butter, lots of onion, curry powder, chicken plus rice plus roasted asparagus.)


Somehow we got on the subject of peppermint milkshakes and the next thing I knew this was happening:


So anyway. Good day.


My body is hurting, though. My knees hurt and my back hurts and my joints ache. It’s clearly a lack of exercise. I just can’t seem to get my shit together. My typical routine is off right now (M and W strength training and cardio a couple times a week). I skipped last W and this M night, too. I don’t know what my problem is, but I just can’t get myself on track. I think I’ve got the stress eating under control – and I’m otherwise mostly treating myself well with the sleep and the getting dressed in actual clothes each day and all that.

I’ll get it together. These things happen.

OMG, the weekend was a whirlwind.

I had a doctor appointment early Friday morning (and was prescribed an antibiotic for a sinus infection that’s been driving me crazy). Worked all day (at my job, not school stuff) and planned to leave a little early (meaning 3:30-4P), but had some client crisis stuff going on (combined with talking with co-workers) and didn’t wind up leaving until a little after 6. We had a friend over for dinner, so I got home at the same time she showed up. Fortunately Jon had gotten home from his work trip around noon and had been able to cook dinner.

Fun night, but I was completely exhausted by the time I went to bed. I felt like I hadn’t even really had a chance to connect with Jon.

(His back-to-back travel lately is AWFUL, especially when he’s out of the country and time differences and the huge expense mean we don’t have much chance to talk or text. He plans his own travel but things have just been coming up. Too many things.)

We spent Saturday at home being lazy and hanging out with MC so his mom could have a break and do something fun.



Jon’s child # 4 came into town Saturday afternoon (from college), so we ordered Chinese take-out for dinner and then spent a couple more hours with MC.


I worked on a paper off and on all day and finally got it in decent shape by about midnight.

I have been on the couch all day working, but at least I've had company.

My goal was to spend Sunday with Jon (vs. distracted by the paper) – so that’s what I did.

We had a breakfast date and then went shopping and stocked up on everything (super fun and exciting, I know).

I don’t think I’ve ever made it out of Target without buying something for the baby.


Jon and I caught up on tv and had a super lazy day. I think I even took a nap.

Today, I had an earlyish morning meeting with my mentor and then spent the day at home hanging out. Jon’s child #3 potentially has mastitis and has had a fever since last night and has felt pretty awful, so I’ve tried to help with MC as much as possible.




Dinner (made by Jon’s child #3 when she started feeling a little better) (cauliflower crust, sausage, pesto):


I am going to make a real effort to run tomorrow. The weather is shitty, but I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately. I miss it. A lot. Even though I hate it and am really not very good at it. It’s hard to explain.


So, yeah. Whirlwind. But I finished one big paper! One to go.

Today’s baby day. Jon’s out of town again this week, so it’s just been me and MC.


I don’t think I ever posted the 4 month pics I took since I’ve been mostly posting from my phone (and have never taken the time to figure out how to link to flickr from my phone), but 4 months!



He’s a sweetheart – a super happy baby with SUCH a sweet disposition. I feel very lucky to be able to be in his daily life.


I had a class this morning and a quick meeting afterward and I gave Henry a bath and did a little laundry – but I’ve spent the majority of my time hugging a baby.


I have a lot hanging over my head, but it’s ok. I never want to be so focused on stress (via work or school or whatever) that I miss out on stuff like this:



Just have to manage my time well. Realistically – I’ve been happy to have a break from everything today.

I can’t believe I’m up so late (1145p)!

I got home from classes late in the afternoon and canceled my workout with the trainer because of my growing stress about finishing a paper … so I’ve been working on that for the last several hours or so. Things were going well, so I just kept on with it way past my typical bedtime (9). I can’t stay up much later than this, though, and not be in a completely foul mood when I have to (choose to) wake up at 5. Big fan of sleep. I’m not sure that I can function on much less than 8 hours each night and have little desire to test it out more than a night or 2 here and there.

Anyway. Decent day. I noticed that I think I’ve switched from moderate level stress (which means a desire to stress eat) to high stress (which means little appetite and general stomach discomfort most of the time).

2 more weeks! I plan to do absolutely nothing productive during the break.

I ate a typical breakfast:


I packed my lunch but didn’t eat it between my classes because I was anxious and stressed about a statistics quiz for which I was woefully underprepared. Spent my time cramming stuff into my brain (with little success).

Fortunately, we were able to eat dinner pretty early since I canceled with the trainer. Jon’s child #3 made rice, roasted squash and chicken (marinated with some sort of lime, cilantro, cumin situation). She’s doing a really good job picking out recipes and cooking each night (we just buy the groceries). She seems to follow Jon’s general way, which I like:


Not much else going on. Classes all day, paper writing all night.

These two are pretty neglected right now:


But only because I’ve been too lazy to walk them as much as is typical and have instead been forcing them to play in the backyard. You’d think it’s torture by the looks they give me when they realize they’re going back there vs. exploring the world.

I have literally been working non-stop since I woke up at 5:30 this morning.

My body hurts from hunching over all day and my back hurts from sitting so long and my brain is just dead.

I worked some until daylight, which is the earliest I’ll walk the dogs since we have a lot of coyotes that roam around freaking me out. Shortly after their walks, I took a shower and got dressed and got to work. I think it was 7:30. Now that I think about it, I should have had better boundaries and should have at least had breakfast first.

Breakfast (yogurt, blueberries, almond butter):


I worked until I stopped to grab some lunch:


Then I worked until about 4 when I took a short break to take the dogs on another quick walk.

Jon’s child #3 made meatloaf (full of vegetables and topped with bacon), baked potatoes and steamed broccoli for dinner:


I seriously can’t keep this level of work up, but I have a 45 minute presentation to give in the morning and a huge paper due on Monday and another huge paper looming and 2 final exams … all in the next couple of weeks.

So. It’s going to suck for a while. I’ll survive. Good news is I’m too busy to stress eat? Bad news is I really need to exercise, but can’t force myself to make time.

I did squeeze a baby at dinner, which is always fun.

Today is our 8th wedding anniversary. Jon’s out of the country, so there’s no celebrating going on – but we’ll get around to it eventually. Timehop was fun today, though:




Can’t forget what life was like 8 years ago:




Today’s been a weird day. I’ve just been sort of off all day.

I got up at 5:45 and puttered around getting some stuff done until I was nearly out of time to get to a meeting, so I grabbed some stuff for breakfast on the way out the door:


I left that meeting and went to another. Left that meeting and went to another. Busy morning.

I got home around 12:30, but didn’t feel overly hungry. I started to feel shaky an hour or so later, though, so I ate some lunch:


Jon’s child #3 made some chocolate chip cookies (with almond flour), so I had one of those, too:


I have SO much work to do over the next couple of weeks that I’m almost paralyzed by it. I kept starting things and then getting distracted – just could NOT focus and felt increasing stress, so I set my alarm an hour out and checked out. When I woke up (after 20 minutes), I painted my toenails and then forced myself to get some work done.

I guess I was mostly productive. Didn’t get much accomplished, but I tried.

It happens. I have days like this sometimes. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.

Dinner: Jon’s child #3 made ratatouille (?) – chicken, squash, mushrooms, tomatoes, etc. It was fantastic.


This showed up today and made me smile:


I barely remember her being so small.

Weekends fly by way too quickly.

Saturday, Jon and I got up early and ate a simple breakfast together: eggs.


I worked a little, but at some point Jon’s child #3 and I investigated things going on around town and found that the zoo was having a free day. We decided to do that since it was a really nice day.

Stopped at Panera for lunch on the way:


The traffic waiting to get to the zoo was INSANE – backed up for miles. Jon was already less than enthusiastic about the zoo, anyway, so we debated other options and wound up driving to Gatlinburg. We almost drove to Asheville, NC, since that’s typically about as fast as getting through Gatlinburg area traffic, but we decided to risk it.

We spent the afternoon walking around and people watching and drinking hot chocolate.




We stopped on the way home at a random Mexican place we found open in a small mountain town.

(shrimp and chicken and onions, rice, beans)


The whole day was a pretty fun impromptu adventure. I can take Gatlinburg traffic and chaos about once every 5 years, so I’m good for a while now.



Today has flown by without much getting accomplished. I got some work done on an assignment, but didn’t finish it, started laundry, but didn’t finish, grocery shopped, but didn’t really prep anything. I’ve mostly just wanted to hang out without stress.

I skipped breakfast because I wasn’t hungry, so had yogurt for lunch. Had some snacks:



My stomach has been kind of hurting (likely because of back to back junky dinners on Fri and Sat night), so I requested something with ginger for dinner:


No exercise this weekend, though I did track our walking in Gatlinburg and found we walked just over 3 miles.

We’ve been watching Twin Peaks on Hulu for some reason even though it’s the weirdest BS I’ve probably ever seen. Time for that now.

It’s been a low-key weekend, which is exactly what I wanted.

My cohort at school (that initially started with 5 people) is falling apart. One person has already dropped out and another is very clearly struggling. We met this morning (my free, non-work Friday that I cherish) on campus this morning at 8AM at the request of the struggling person. It turned out to be a pretty exhausting 3+ hour thing wherein I left feeling completely exhausted but having accomplished nothing.

I had to leave that shitshow and drive across town to attend a 3 hour ethics workshop to get that portion of my continuing ed done for the year (for my state license). My academic credits cover everything but ethics now, which is fine, but gd this one was painful.

Jon was home by the time I got home, so the day rapidly improved.


Part of my grumpiness throughout the morning and afternoon might have been hunger. I wasn’t super hungry this morning, so I just grabbed some stuff on the way out the door (and wound up just eating the Larabar).


I had planned to pack my lunch but just didn’t for some reason despite knowing I’d have very little time before the workshop. I don’t really do fast food, so I stopped a gas station and found the best I could:


I think I ate everything but the pistachios. They had snacks at the workshop, but nothing I would typically choose to eat for just a random mid-afternoon snack (bags of chips, cookies, coke) – so I didn’t.

We’ve had a standing weekly Mexican and margarita night for a long, long time and Jon’s child #3 has been accompanying us since she moved in (along with MC now, of course).


Tonight was the night! (shrimp tacos, a slightly better choice than my typical fajitas or carnitas + rice + beans)


We stopped for ice cream afterward, as is typical.

Fun night.

Now I’m trying to stay awake so I can get out of the super early to bed, super early to rise pattern.

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